Project Update

I was kind of silent last week because I had too many things to think about. I was and still am in creative block mode and am trying to push through it. I’m on the last portion of the book that I’ve been working on and I’m trying to figure out ways to make it more user/everyone friendly. I don’t want people to feel like they’re 5 reading or looking at what I’ve given them. I’ve been drawing to find ways to make the creative brainstorm portion of the book more informative and. . .it’s surprisingly very difficult and I can’t think of anything so I’ve been doodling my little heart out so that I can unearth some ideas. Most of what I’ve added to this post was inspired by Brandon Boyd’s work that I’ve been using to get inspired (despite it not emulating his work well AT ALL. . .but that’s because his work is amazing so. . .yeah) I’ve also considered using another social platform to promote my project, mostly because I don’t want to use Tumblr and partially because the few I’ve been using don’t really work well and I don’t have a large enough following to get anywhere with them when the project is finished at the end of the month. Hopefully I can finish this soon and have something physically tangible to promote in August. Kind of hard to promote something that doesn’t quite exist in book form yet because it seems less believable that it’ll actually turn into something. . .to me at least.

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Project #1 Update

I’ve been continuing to make drafts for the project and am now working on the hardest portion, which is more of the tools and tutorial portion. I spent most of yesterday piecing together an example for brainstorming and using references to create different concepts. What I drew for that is what you’ll see at the very bottom. Also, for anyone who didn’t read my life post last Friday, I officially found a organization to give to. It’s called Marwen and creates art programs for students from 6 through 12. They have experienced artist dedicate their time to teaching these students and also provide courses that help them prep for standardized testing and college. Here’s link to the website if you’re interested in volunteering or giving:

 https://marwen.org/students/learn-at-marwen/faq

For those who didn’t read about my project, here’s a link to that also:

http://wp.me/p3zzM5-lN

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The reference I used for this can be seen here:
http://twiggxstock.deviantart.com/art/Bewildered-134198881

Summer Project #2: The Alphabet of Life-ing

The explanation of this project is shorter than the explanation for the last one I posted. This one doesn’t involve reading the last post, but you still can if you’d like:

I’m writing a story that’s like a memoir, but through the perspective of someone else. It’s almost like I’m using a character to explain my inner thoughts and experience. There are many thoughts I have that I feel like I can’t express myself. This allows me to do that and end up with something really cool. Like the first project, I plan to do vanity publishing to accomplish this. Vanity publishing, for anyone who  doesn’t know, is a publishing method that involves using a distributor to sell and make your book. It’s different from normal publishing because you’re not going to an actual publisher, you have to find your editor and manage drafting on your own, and it takes less time because it’s for an immediate result rather than a long working process.

This one, I’ll actually be publishing on here as well. Each small chapter will be an alphabet letter and based on something that I’ve experienced or that I have an opinion on. I’ve tried to make the characters voice blend with mine to disconnect it, but I’ve started with my own in such a dominant way that I’d rather add more plot later in order to develop the character I’m using.

I’ve never wanted to publish anything that I’ve written because I feel like anything I write isn’t good enough, but my best friend has probably been the largest supporter in both of my projects and she’s the reason I want to pursue this. I thank her for giving me the confidence to take on these projects.

Another thing I’d like to add is that I’ll also be taking some of the profit from this book to give to a charity. I want this book to contribute something to someone or something else and not just myself. I’ll be posting new chapters every tuesday. After this post, I’ll be putting up letter ‘A’ tonight. Sometimes the small chapters will be delayed because I’ve been writing based off of when I can remember a moment or a feeling the  best. Hopefully you guys enjoy my story. There is some cussing, so apologies to those that may be offended by that. I’ll be adding asterisks to make it more reader friendly for those that are uncomfortable with that.

Summer Project #1: Art Book

WARNING: This post is painfully long and kind of emotional, so if you have time for neither, wait to read this . . .or just read something really uplifting and positive. Chris Martin’s blog (http://chrismartinwrites.com) is perfect for it. If you do read this, read his blog after. . .it’s great. . .and I’m not talking about the lead singer of Coldplay, if there was any confusion. . .

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I don’t really want to talk about it as if I’m trying to sell it, but in some capaciity
I have to in order to promote this project in hopes of it actually helping someone else besides myself. I’m really sheepish about sharing things I work on because I’m almost convinced someone’s going to knock me down or tell me something discouraging, but I’ve probably recieved enough of that at this point to be able to share something. Instead of beating around this with words, I will now explain *crosses legs and begins*:

I’ve started creating an outline and draft for an art book I want to publish in a few months. At first, I wanted to make it like a very cheap coffee table book of all of my drawings and work. Kind of like a fancy picture book. I realized, though, that I wouldn’t gain much satisfaction out of that because it was too ‘me’ orientated. It also didn’t serve as a challenge. If anything, it just seemed like a really cheap way to tangible vanity, and it took me awhile to realize my pipe dream needed some revision.

I want  to help someone in some way and I want it to be simple, like myself. Although I know a portion of it will have to involve me introducing myself and showing some of my progress,  I want a good portion of it to be me sharing things that I’ve learned in hopes that it helps someone. The way I draw certain things are different and some have said (meaning a few friends) have called it unique and interesting. Some have also asked me how I do it and a 5 minute explanation isn’t exactly enough at times. I could imagine that what I have to share might help a few people. Honestly, if it even helped one, that would be a blessing in itself. It would mean that what I had to give was worth giving.

I will be using vanity publishing (irony) to make this book a real thing. No matter how many actually get sold, for each that is, half of the proceeds will go to a charity that is still pending. I’m still researching a few because I’ve read that there are organizations that have an uneven distribution of funds, and I don’t want to blindly donate money somewhere without knowing where everything’s going.

Those were some of my ‘revisions’, which have actually made this project harder and that’s a good thing. I feel like it’s a small, but extensive way to make a difference. I’ve never been able to do things for myself. Not because I wasn’t given the opportunity, but because it didn’t feel right. I’m not exactly ‘God’s gift to society’ by any stretch of the imagination, but I have such a need to help people. Giving has always been more gratifying to me than receiving. Don’t get me wrong, I love presents and things, but if I could choose to be Santa for the rest of my life, I would gain another 150 pounds so fast it’s not even funny.

This book is kind of my version of giving and it’s been something I’ve thought about for months now that’s actually coming to a reality on paper. . . .wrinkled computer paper, but still. . .real paper. In a lot of ways, I didn’t want this book to seem like self promotion of my artwork or some weird way to showcase that I am some human genie lamp and that if you rub me you can be as ‘amazingly talented’ as me. If anything, that’s what I’m afraid of. That my intentions will seem clouded and that  people will think that I’m really just doing it for my own self fulfillment. It’s also what’s been keeping me from being able to go through with it.

The girl discipleling me from my university explained something to me that helps me continue working on this project. She said that God, no matter what the capacity, has a way of shaping our intentions to serve him, which is the ultimate goal at the end of the day (if your religious). So, no matter what intent is behind it, it will, in some way serve a purpose in leading people to Him. Granted, this book isn’t about God specifically, but my intention is to help others in a way that I never thought was really possible. Whether it were some subconcious way to ‘self promote’, I feel like I’d still make some sort of difference by both giving a new perspective on creativity and giving to a charity that’s passion for a cause supercedes any selfish hidden agenda I have to make myself look “awesome”. For once, I want to use my creativity and art to make a difference rather than just make detailed posters for the walls of my dorm room. If the thing I do with my hands is something God wants to use to help other people, then I feel like this is a start to embrace that.

For those that read this and didn’t get totally bombarded by my freakish out cry for moral support for this project, thank you. I do want to use this as a way to both let people know that it exists and have potential people that are interested, but I really need a well of moral support more than anything right now. Something is really getting in the way of me doing this. I have no idea why either, but it is. Just someone simply giving me a critique on any progress I post or saying ‘it looks like it’s going okay’ is great and more than I could ask for.

Also, for anyone that’s religious and feels like what I’m doing is the direct opposite of what I should be doing in the eyes of God, also helpful. I may be a Christian, but as I get older, I realize that I’ve had to change the ways I percieve what it means to uphold God on a daily basis.

This was an extremely long entry for my first summer project and I promise the second one won’t be as long. I also promise that more interesting things about the project will be posted. Whoever read this, thank you so much. I appreciate you.