1,000 views. . . I feel like I should be happy. . .?

So. . . I have 1,000 views somehow?? O.o I guess people casually pass by this blog, notice it’s not very interesting and then leave 😦 but they gave me views and . . . in comparison to deviantART, it’s not the best, but I’m proud of my mini personal sucky, stupid, unimportant, shamelessly self centered and weird blog and. . . 1,000 views within 2 and a half months isn’t bad. . . if I had a smaller number. . . I think I’d probably feel the same, but that’s beside the point. I think with this blog, I leave the door open for many things to happen: I even write on my about page that if you simply view it, and visit my blog that I’ll be happy with that, which is why people do that, they just casually stroll by and . . . yeah. . . man, my blog sucks, but . . . it’s pretty damn fun despite that 🙂

Bitch Mondays: Having Feelings For Somone

Bitch Mondays: Having Feelings For Somone

Okay. . . .now I don’t mind the occasional crush now and then, but the one I have has been messing with my head and, honestly, it’s getting on my laaaaast nerve. . . . .I hate it with a passion. . . .
See, I’m one of those people who, if I have an interest in someone, they NEVER know, and I make sure of it because I inadvertently find it fair to make myself miserable. . . Your mind is NOT your friend. Now, I’ve known for awhile and some and I talk to this guy nearly every day and we have a lot in common and he’s freakishly awesome, but he doesn’t know I like him and he never will O.O. . .it’s time to bitch. . .

So. . .why is this a pain in the ass?: it’s because I want to tell him, but I’m to weak and spineless to do it and I’m afraid of numerous things. I know, the things I’m complaining about are quite childish and simple and. . .kind of stupid because there’s a solution to the problem which would be to tell him, but if I do, here’s the possible results that I thought might come to fruition:

Either A: he won’t be my friend anymore and he’ll be weirded out

B: He’ll still be my friend, but make me feel embarrassed and awkward about it

C: He’ll like me back (this one is what I’d like to call the ‘disconnection with reality’ option)

And D: he’ll yawn about it and say he doesn’t care and then casually go about his business

I REALLy like option D. . .I feel like I’m being such a girl by bitching about this. These are things middleschoolers worry about not college students. . .it just like telling someone you like them is very difficult, which is why I don’t do it. Tell me to lift heavy objects or jump over something, or do a boat load of school work. DON’T tell me to tell someone I like them. . .it will not be easy for me. . .well, I’m going to go study now to take my mind off THAT lol